Obama Fever and Disappointments

Well tommorow is the day. Barrack Hussein Obama is the next president, the first racially mixed because for those 2% who remember he is half white, half black. I mean really I voted for him, I believe in him wholeheartedly but african americans really annoy me with this whole "I cried so hard because now we truly feel at home." It takes a man who looks like you to become president for you to feel welcome in the only country you lived in. How about the doctors, laywers, senators, professors, secretary of states who are full African American. You didn't put your suitcase down when you realized America was ready for an African American a time ago, except there weren't any stepping up to base? It sucks to think Obama won because of his color because African Americans can't get over the fact a time ago he would have been denied because of it. This guy should be president only because of one thing, he is ready and willing to make the changes we need. But I guess I have to be happy that either way he is in office and will now get all the help he needs to put this economy and international relations back into gear. I just hate to think that while he would otherwise probably go down in history as great that will all the expectations of him weighing on him what he wants to do, is expected to do and does will somehow be a disappointment if he gives anything less than 110%.
My husband came back fron Arizona of course because Arizona seemed not to work out so I had to leave. So I'm not officially a single mother, with no income and going to school. I'm a bad advertisement for the california welfare program. But here's the kicker. I'm ok and hell I'm even good. Because while I pray every night for God to do something this way or the other, I've heard once his answer is always 1. Yes 2. not yet 3 or I've got something better planned. Josh coming home without a paycheck and lies sucked and almost set me over. My faith kept me sane and free, as well as a relaxing weekend at the cabin and my mothers love. I got a call today from the apartment place I want to move in and they have an apartment for us available. I don't know how we'll do that, pay half of next months rent before we can move out, rent and deposit for the apartment and pay remaining bills and other people back. But whatever God allows will happen will be what I need and I'm thankful in the end to know that and depend on that. I really liked this quote from Dark Knight which has become my favorite movie recently.
The night is darkest just before the dawn
and
Sometimes the truth isn't good enough. Sometimes people deserve more.